back to work.

back to work today after three days off.

ten days until melbourne.

one month until sydney.

and one month after that until he leaves.

when i grow up.

i'm going to live in a house with 2 of my best friends.
no, not house - cottage.
we're going to have a big tree out the back (or front), with a tyre swing.
we're going to live happily ever after, because we deserve it.

Deleted.

I deleted a lot of old posts again.

I don't like feeling so vulnerable. After deleting them, however, i have realised that i actually like reading over the thoughts and feelings of the past. So from now on, i will blog like i said i would. I will speak my mind and my feelings and refrain from fretting over who will be reading my every move, or how stupid i may look.

I am officially in love with Bradley Hathaway's music.
And Bright Eyes.
And Damien Rice.

I am excited for the future.
I have some friends that i know i will never replace.
That gives me hope.

Over and out.

Welcome back.

So it's been quite some time since I've written here. My life has been a mess and I seem to have finally picked myself up, put on a happy face and realised that things will be okay. Things are still not fine, but things are better...things will get better. For the now I will keep my head held high and take things as they come. I'm starting to get used to the drama, I guess that's what comes with growing up.

I used to be the girl that let nothing get her down. And for the past few months I have let that girl slide away, slightly out of reach but not completely out of view. I'm bringing her back. These few months have cut me down like I never thought possible. I don't ever want to get like that again.

I have a friend. He was there for me a lot during all of this drama. He was my go-to person and I found trust in someone I have never actually met. Which is a big deal considering I generally do not trust anyone. If he reads this, I want him to know how much I value everything he has done for me...(a lot). You will always mean a lot to me.
:) <3

Welcome back to life.

Tonightttttt will be fantastic.

Look up, look up, look up, look up into the sky, love.
You see that moon shining so high up above us?
It rolls around on account of a bunch of scientific stuff.
I like to think it does, just because He loves us.

- Bradley Hathaway.

I just washed my hair. My shampoo smells pretty amazing. Like lollies or something equally as fabulous. I haven't parted my hair yet, I should probably go do that. Lalaaaa.

Death Cab For Cutie is tonight...I'm pretty excited. I've picked out what I'm wearing. You might be shocked to know that it's tights, a dress and a cardigan. Sarcasm on the shock front. I hope their set is relatively long. I don't enjoy it when bands play epically short sets. That's a lie...I semi-hope the support band have a short set so that Death Cab come on earlierrrrrrr.

I also hope that Damien Rice frolicks over some time in the near future. And Bright Eyes. That would make my life pretty spectacular.

I need to think of something to do today.
Preferably something that involves walking or some kind of exercise.
I'll probably write another blog after Death Cab.
Only 11 hours to go :D

Oh yes, she's quite bored.

I'm sitting here in exactly the same position as I was when I wrote the last two posts.
I'm on the middle recliner lounge in front of the tv. I have my laptop on my lap (where it belongs), resting on a pillow to prevent leg burn. I am looking out the window at the wind...or at least the effect that the wind is having on the poor unfortunate trees.

I didn't succeed in my diet plans. Strike one. We'll try again tomorrow.

I have decided that tonight I will be eating sushi. From Sushi Train of course. I haven't had sushi in a couple of weeks, which is a pretty big deal. I've also realised that I have a slight addiction to Subway, just to add to my other addictions.

My dog is sleeping on my treadmill. Because he doesn't have sufficient bedding or anything. It doesn't look very comfortable. I'm too lazy to tell him to get off though, it's not like I ever use the treadmill. Treadmills are so very boring. I put it in front of the tv so as to soothe the boredom, but it doesn't work...as soon as the adverts come on, the boredom rushes straight back and this usually results in me switching off the machine.

I could really use a new job. I've been applying, but so far it's resulted in nothing. Here's to hoping.

Well hello there confusion.

I really wish you would make up your mind.
My mind is struggling a little bit to catch up with your indecisiveness.


That is all.

Let's call this the beginning.

Though it's really not the beginning.
I suppose it's the beginning of something... the start of something new.
Something different.

I made a new friend yesterday, he writes blogs.
It gave me motivation to start one myself.
I usually write these kind of things on Word - where no one else can read them.
I'm not as vulnerable there... though I doubt anyone will ever read any of this anyway, so I am safe for the time being.

I also just realised that I made my url my name.
So now if people do read it, they'll know exactly who it is.
Oh well.

My first blog isn't very impressive at all.
So apologies if you're reading this, you poor unfortunate soul.
Perhaps my life will get more interesting :)